21/12/2012
Friday
03:42
Сижу зимней ночью,
при полной луне,
не спится...
не спится...
не спится бы мне...
12.12.12
12/12/2012
Wednesday18:24
Tea
10/12/2012
Monday
23:09
A girl made a cup of tea for me today.
It was the loveliest thing someone has done to me in so long...
Monday
23:09
A girl made a cup of tea for me today.
It was the loveliest thing someone has done to me in so long...
Just a cigarette...
02/12/2012
Saturday
22:44
Listen to the words and accept it, most of you started like this...
Riding bus without a ticket
01/12/2012
Saturday
03:24
Got caught without a ticket on a bus for my first time in my life today. I was all so scared but in the other hand I was kind of proud (lol dno), such a bad-ass.
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh...
sunshine...
...sure, sunshine..
Staying in my student hostel... ugh, it sucks in here. So boring.. and I can't smoke.
Can't wait for Christmas!!!
Saturday
03:24
Got caught without a ticket on a bus for my first time in my life today. I was all so scared but in the other hand I was kind of proud (lol dno), such a bad-ass.
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh...
sunshine...
...sure, sunshine..
Staying in my student hostel... ugh, it sucks in here. So boring.. and I can't smoke.
Can't wait for Christmas!!!
I ♥ shooting
14/11/2012
Wednesday
11:51
I want to have gym everyday except Friday. For the fuck sake how will I get fit if I can only do sports (IN A WARM PLACE) 3 days a week. Next week I will have my jacket in which I can run and I will go jogging outside.
School tires me a lot. After the classes I just want to go to the gym and get the anger out of me. And shooting helps too. I've been much happier here than in my previous school. Tho there were all my friends and cats and food 24/7. With these 2, 5 months I have gone better in shooting... kind of. Not a professional but still better. If compare this my abilities two months ago... no comments.
Wednesday
11:51
I want to have gym everyday except Friday. For the fuck sake how will I get fit if I can only do sports (IN A WARM PLACE) 3 days a week. Next week I will have my jacket in which I can run and I will go jogging outside.
School tires me a lot. After the classes I just want to go to the gym and get the anger out of me. And shooting helps too. I've been much happier here than in my previous school. Tho there were all my friends and cats and food 24/7. With these 2, 5 months I have gone better in shooting... kind of. Not a professional but still better. If compare this my abilities two months ago... no comments.
Солнечное затмение
13/11/2012
Tuesday
23:23
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
Too sad it was through the internet.
Tuesday
23:23
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
Too sad it was through the internet.
School again
05/11/2012
Monday
23:56
Back at school. Fuck. I miss my love and my cats. The overview of my school holiday I will tomorrow, because by an accident I left my phone at my boyfriends. He'll send it with some cigarettes and piercings that arrived on Sunday by bus to Tallinn. Yay. Finally I will be wearing an actual tunnel, not a cap of some face cream.
Monday
23:56
Back at school. Fuck. I miss my love and my cats. The overview of my school holiday I will tomorrow, because by an accident I left my phone at my boyfriends. He'll send it with some cigarettes and piercings that arrived on Sunday by bus to Tallinn. Yay. Finally I will be wearing an actual tunnel, not a cap of some face cream.
How I spent my holiday
04/11/2012
Sunday
22:01
How I spent my holiday
In the beginning I need to say that MY holiday lasted two week, while it should have been only one. (I was sick)
I saw first snow in Valga. And for sure I took a picture.
Then visited my good friends birthday party, where (as we all can assume) I got extremely drunk.
(I don't have pictures from that yet but I'm waiting and once I get them I will post some here.)
Then we kind of celebrated Halloween too, but not on the actual date of Halloween, but 3 days later. Cuz actual Halloween was not Friday... nor was it Saturday.
Sunday
22:01
How I spent my holiday
In the beginning I need to say that MY holiday lasted two week, while it should have been only one. (I was sick)
I saw first snow in Valga. And for sure I took a picture.
Then visited my good friends birthday party, where (as we all can assume) I got extremely drunk.
(I don't have pictures from that yet but I'm waiting and once I get them I will post some here.)
Then we kind of celebrated Halloween too, but not on the actual date of Halloween, but 3 days later. Cuz actual Halloween was not Friday... nor was it Saturday.
Shit fuck
25/10/2012
Thursday
15:30
Shit fuck.
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3 days til holiday
16/10/2012
Tuesday
22.07
First of all, I wonder who reads my blog. If it's someone I know but don't like... you better quit reading it.
I can think about nothing but sex in my maths class. I wonder what is everyone else thinking, cuz I bet it's far from maths.
A week-long holiday is 3 days away. I can't believe it. I'll be in Valga a whole week!!! Ohh, wow, I can't even think of things I will manage to do there, it makes me smile like a moron.
Tuesday
22.07
First of all, I wonder who reads my blog. If it's someone I know but don't like... you better quit reading it.
I can think about nothing but sex in my maths class. I wonder what is everyone else thinking, cuz I bet it's far from maths.
A week-long holiday is 3 days away. I can't believe it. I'll be in Valga a whole week!!! Ohh, wow, I can't even think of things I will manage to do there, it makes me smile like a moron.
Valga
12/10/2012
Friday
14:05
All hail me. I am in Valga and I'm gonna drink today. Drink hard. Fuck yea.
Friday
14:05
All hail me. I am in Valga and I'm gonna drink today. Drink hard. Fuck yea.
Piercings
11/10/2012
Thursday
08:03
I haven't slept today. I thought I would study English but oh joy - I found few super-cool online shops and whole night I spent on them.
I know now what I want to get pierced in near future.
There. Aaand nipples too. I've already put these and some else piercings to cart and gonna buy them soon... hopefully.
And I started collecting money. I have 10 euros already. Lucky me.
And the best thing is that I will go HOME TOMORROW!!! Aw. I love you. Yup. Meow.
Thursday
08:03
I haven't slept today. I thought I would study English but oh joy - I found few super-cool online shops and whole night I spent on them.
I know now what I want to get pierced in near future.
And I started collecting money. I have 10 euros already. Lucky me.
And the best thing is that I will go HOME TOMORROW!!! Aw. I love you. Yup. Meow.
Food and nails
08/10/2012
Monday
20:01
I've been so emotional lately. I cried even more than 10 times THIS WEEKEND... including Monday. The reasons were really dumb, but oh, whatever.
I feel like a princess when I'm eating here, cuz I get different food from others, cuz I don't eat meat. And everyone is always watching me like, "woah, wow,". Today I had to wait a little more for my exclusive food so I took this:
I've been growing my fingernails for about a month. Not to seem being proud of them, cuz (two nails are broken and the others are still not as long as I want them to be) but they still look fucking awesome. I love my nails.
The black one and the one which is "in blood" are broken. I bet you're wondering about the blood-covered one, why is it so long?... It didn't break completely, just at the side, so I glued it with super-attack. Yup.
Oh, and the one of my most favorite foods... maybe even the only one, salted fish.
Monday
20:01
I've been so emotional lately. I cried even more than 10 times THIS WEEKEND... including Monday. The reasons were really dumb, but oh, whatever.
I feel like a princess when I'm eating here, cuz I get different food from others, cuz I don't eat meat. And everyone is always watching me like, "woah, wow,". Today I had to wait a little more for my exclusive food so I took this:
Looks great, right. I took some white bread to my room to eat at night, too. And plums were really good.
Yes, I eat a lot.
I've been growing my fingernails for about a month. Not to seem being proud of them, cuz (two nails are broken and the others are still not as long as I want them to be) but they still look fucking awesome. I love my nails.
The black one and the one which is "in blood" are broken. I bet you're wondering about the blood-covered one, why is it so long?... It didn't break completely, just at the side, so I glued it with super-attack. Yup.
Oh, and the one of my most favorite foods... maybe even the only one, salted fish.
Wow, a dream
07/10/2012
Saturday, morning (for me)
12:53
What the fuck. I'm still in Tallinn. Yesterday my boyfriend drank in Valga, tho he promised me he wouldn't drink at all without me. So he came home drunk and we skyped. At first I was trying to make him feel better, he was telling me how much he misses me and how fucking miserable he is. But then he started to ask and tell me fucking idiotic things and I told him "what to do", which didn't calm him down and we started to quarrel and I guess he understood he had tothing to say more and logged off. I went all mad and fell asleep.
So, at night I saw a dream.
I don't remember all details and how it started, I only remember parts of it.
First one: I woke up at night. Me and my boyfriend were in my boarding schools room. I was dripping blood Yes, yes. I had my periods, but not only that, I had my nose bleeding too. I was flooding the room with blood, screaming "I'm dying", when my boyfriend woke up. He told me he loved me and the weirdest part, he started eating me out. I was trying to push him back but he was insisting and yeah.... ew.
Second part: I was sitting somewhere on green green grass, the sun was shining and everything was so lovely, butterflies flying.. But suddenly, a fat old lady appeared. She was laughing at me. She was showing me a golden ring, ironically, still laughing. I stood up, and attacked her. She lost the ring, later I found it. The end.
Third part: This one is short. I saw how my boyfriend was sitting on a bed and crying and repeating "but I don't want children".
Saturday, morning (for me)
12:53
What the fuck. I'm still in Tallinn. Yesterday my boyfriend drank in Valga, tho he promised me he wouldn't drink at all without me. So he came home drunk and we skyped. At first I was trying to make him feel better, he was telling me how much he misses me and how fucking miserable he is. But then he started to ask and tell me fucking idiotic things and I told him "what to do", which didn't calm him down and we started to quarrel and I guess he understood he had tothing to say more and logged off. I went all mad and fell asleep.
So, at night I saw a dream.
I don't remember all details and how it started, I only remember parts of it.
First one: I woke up at night. Me and my boyfriend were in my boarding schools room. I was dripping blood Yes, yes. I had my periods, but not only that, I had my nose bleeding too. I was flooding the room with blood, screaming "I'm dying", when my boyfriend woke up. He told me he loved me and the weirdest part, he started eating me out. I was trying to push him back but he was insisting and yeah.... ew.
Second part: I was sitting somewhere on green green grass, the sun was shining and everything was so lovely, butterflies flying.. But suddenly, a fat old lady appeared. She was laughing at me. She was showing me a golden ring, ironically, still laughing. I stood up, and attacked her. She lost the ring, later I found it. The end.
Third part: This one is short. I saw how my boyfriend was sitting on a bed and crying and repeating "but I don't want children".
Lyapis Trubetskoy
06/10/2012
02:10
Lyapis Trubetskoy
Tallinn
@Club Tapper
26.10.2012
20:00
20€
What should I wear? I think the first outfit would be good for this event. That's my favorite dress, by the way. Or maybe the last one, cuz the handbag goes only with that... But... depends on what hairstyle I will have in these 3 weeks. It's too early to choose now. Oh god, I have to collect money, for cigarettes, something sweet to drink and the ticket of course, too!
02:10
Lyapis Trubetskoy
Tallinn
@Club Tapper
26.10.2012
20:00
20€
What should I wear? I think the first outfit would be good for this event. That's my favorite dress, by the way. Or maybe the last one, cuz the handbag goes only with that... But... depends on what hairstyle I will have in these 3 weeks. It's too early to choose now. Oh god, I have to collect money, for cigarettes, something sweet to drink and the ticket of course, too!
I didn't take pictures of my face cuz I had no make-up on.
Strange art
05/10/2012
Friday early morning
00:19
Inspired by a story told by my classmate today I started thinging about opening my own ''art gallery'' in future. I'm sure there is already things like this in the world, but the idea is so beautiful and if I will find out that there is already something like this in Estonia I will definitely visit that! So, the idea consists of a lot of beautiful naked people. They would just stand still in random poses in a barely lighted room and it would be fucking admirable. Please someone tell me if you know if there's something like this somewhere. Oh god, my fantasies...
Friday early morning
00:19
Inspired by a story told by my classmate today I started thinging about opening my own ''art gallery'' in future. I'm sure there is already things like this in the world, but the idea is so beautiful and if I will find out that there is already something like this in Estonia I will definitely visit that! So, the idea consists of a lot of beautiful naked people. They would just stand still in random poses in a barely lighted room and it would be fucking admirable. Please someone tell me if you know if there's something like this somewhere. Oh god, my fantasies...
But as long as I'm still a kid and couldn't visit naked people gallery anyway, I make some strange art myself.
A bread-elephant or an elephant-bread.
Style
03/10/2012
Wednesday
18:47
have to write about my style and appearance and favorite items of clothing and outfits and stuff. I don't even know what style of clothes I wear... how will I write 200 words about it.. But I'll give it a try and maybe I will figure out what kind of person I am and what kind of clothes I mostly wear and most important - what STYLE is it..
I'll write the rough copy of it here and then write it down in my notebook. Here's and example of what I usually wear when I go out:
_____
Wednesday
18:47
have to write about my style and appearance and favorite items of clothing and outfits and stuff. I don't even know what style of clothes I wear... how will I write 200 words about it.. But I'll give it a try and maybe I will figure out what kind of person I am and what kind of clothes I mostly wear and most important - what STYLE is it..
I'll write the rough copy of it here and then write it down in my notebook. Here's and example of what I usually wear when I go out:
1) My appearance and personality (examples)
2) My favorite item of clothing
¤ How I got it
¤ What it looks like (color, pattern, holes, stains, etc.)
3) My favorite outfit
¤ Why is this outfit special
¤ When do I wear it
¤ How does it make me feel
"My style"
My appearance and personality change almost every day. I like to wear different types of clothes and depending on this changes my personality. One day I like to wear clothes in dark shades, other day I prefer to be all in pink. When I'm wearing soft and sweet colors I feel like a friendly and lovely person, caring and even willing to help homeless people. When I'm wearing dark clothes, I feel as an emo, not talkative, unfriendly and uncommunicative. I also like to wear urban-style clothes, maybe it even looks like a bunch of clothes that don't go together, but I like it and I see some point in wearing them like that. With that I show how carefree I am. I never care what people think or talk about me and that is always noticeable in my clothes.
Because I have so many styles and different combinations of clothes to wear, I could never choose only one favorite item of clothing. If I should choose just an item I wear, it would be the red cat collar with small diamond-looking plastic decorations. I wear it only to some events. I've already lost one plastic diamond from it, so if I would wear it every day, soon there won't be any of them left. It's a gift from my boyfriend. He stole it from a supermarket for me.
From clothing items I really love my favorite dress. It's dark-colored. It has two parts, the top and the skirt. The top looks like a black undershirt and the skirt starts from waist and is really short. Skirts pattern contains three wide horizontal stripes, the upper one is dark blue, then the middle one - dark purple, and bottom is dark-emerald colored. Skirts material reminds plastic bag, but looks really cool. It also has an underskirt, so if the ''plastic bag'' would go up with the wind, no one would see my ass. I like to wear this dress with black tights and dark blue sneakers. For my sadness I haven't worn this dress since july 2012, since a cigarette fell on the dresses skirt and burned a small hole in it. I was really sad that day, my favorite dress after all.
Spending money
01/10/2012
Monday
23:45
A little pre-story.
I haven't been blogging for a while and I kinda miss it. I decided to write in English now to improve it a little bit. I'm writing here exclusively for MYSELF and I don't expect any readers. I love blogging.
I now live a precious life. I just got back from a small shopping. Bought two pairs of leggins, a military-patterned XXL T-shirt and some make-up stuff. I saw really pretty monster feet look-a-like slippers in Walking, only 8 euros and I'm pretty sure I'm going to buy them soon.
I started reading Looking for Alaska this week, hoping reading a book in English will improve my English, but oh, in writing I'm still weak as hell.
A month already here, in Tallinn. Learning and shooting my ass off but I really like it.
Monday
23:45
A little pre-story.
I haven't been blogging for a while and I kinda miss it. I decided to write in English now to improve it a little bit. I'm writing here exclusively for MYSELF and I don't expect any readers. I love blogging.
I now live a precious life. I just got back from a small shopping. Bought two pairs of leggins, a military-patterned XXL T-shirt and some make-up stuff. I saw really pretty monster feet look-a-like slippers in Walking, only 8 euros and I'm pretty sure I'm going to buy them soon.
I started reading Looking for Alaska this week, hoping reading a book in English will improve my English, but oh, in writing I'm still weak as hell.
A month already here, in Tallinn. Learning and shooting my ass off but I really like it.
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