07/10/2012
Saturday, morning (for me)
12:53
What the fuck. I'm still in Tallinn. Yesterday my boyfriend drank in Valga, tho he promised me he wouldn't drink at all without me. So he came home drunk and we skyped. At first I was trying to make him feel better, he was telling me how much he misses me and how fucking miserable he is. But then he started to ask and tell me fucking idiotic things and I told him "what to do", which didn't calm him down and we started to quarrel and I guess he understood he had tothing to say more and logged off. I went all mad and fell asleep.
So, at night I saw a dream.
I don't remember all details and how it started, I only remember parts of it.
First one: I woke up at night. Me and my boyfriend were in my boarding schools room. I was dripping blood Yes, yes. I had my periods, but not only that, I had my nose bleeding too. I was flooding the room with blood, screaming "I'm dying", when my boyfriend woke up. He told me he loved me and the weirdest part, he started eating me out. I was trying to push him back but he was insisting and yeah.... ew.
Second part: I was sitting somewhere on green green grass, the sun was shining and everything was so lovely, butterflies flying.. But suddenly, a fat old lady appeared. She was laughing at me. She was showing me a golden ring, ironically, still laughing. I stood up, and attacked her. She lost the ring, later I found it. The end.
Third part: This one is short. I saw how my boyfriend was sitting on a bed and crying and repeating "but I don't want children".
